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let me out of here
this little box i’m trapped in
screaming
clawing
beneath the calm facade
why won’t anyone listen
miss them
want to move on
find myself
live the adventure
scared to leave
buddies pals
caretakers
i brood
alone
by my own devices
dangled over a chasm
of my own foolish design
wanting my life to start
not living in the meantime
I’m so far behind on the pace I’d calculated (words/day) for the “November novel” that it’s almost as if I hadn’t started at all.
I keep sitting down and writing a few sentences and then keep letting myself sabotage the effort and get distracted. This is not good. Not good at all.
I’m not a real happy camper right now anyway.
Spent the day in a bit of a disconnected funk. It started out okay (if early – thanks, cats) but I later found myself sitting in the shop thinking about all the people in my life down here, the friends who’ve stood with me through my rebirth these last few years, and dreading the time when I’m going to tell them “Goodbye” and move on to the next stage of my life.
Here’s the horrid part, which I can acknowledge in my more lucid, self-reflective moments: knowing that that transition is somewhat imminent, I’ve been growing distant, trying, I suppose, to reduce my prominence in the “social group.”
Whether I’m trying to protect myself or them I’m not sure.
“As a special-effects romp, The Matrix Revolutions may keep viewers glued to their seats for a couple of hours. But as a follow-up to the allegorical tour de force of the first Matrix film, it’s a dismal failure.”
That sentence nicely sums up my feelings on the flick.
More at the Wired News article.
Fun dialogue from this week’s Angel:
ANGEL: Did you know the Devil built a robot?
WESLEY: El Roboto Satánico!
(beat)
ANGEL: Nobody tells me anything.
A new blogtastic exploration in free association. Courtesy http://subliminal.lunanina.com/
Look! Popular opinion! Run away!: http://www.fridayfive.org/
1. What food do you like that most people hate?
Mushrooms. Sushi (sashimi). Not necessarily at the same time.
2. What food do you hate that most people love?
Cherries. I like cherry-flavored stuff, but actual cherries make me gag.
3. What famous person, whom many people may find attractive, is most unappealing to you?
I wouldn’t describe her as “most unappealing,” but Jennifer Lopez really doesn’t do anything for me. Pamela Anderson annoys the shit outta me, though.
4. What famous person, whom many people may find unappealing, do you find attractive?
Fairuza Balk.
5. What popular trend baffles you?
These kids today, what with the wearing of the pants at their knees! Don’t they know they could trip? Honestly, they should just commit and hogtie themselves instead of pussyfooting around the issue!
(”…radio dramas”)
As someone mentioned on Slashdot:
The BBC has announced that they will be adapting the final three Hitchhiker’s Guide to the Galaxy books for radio, with this ‘tertiary phase’ including Life, the Universe, and Everything; So Long and Thanks for All the Fish; and Mostly Harmless. Members of the original radio series cast, including Simon Jones, Geoffrey McGivern, Mark Wing-Davey, Susan Sheridan, Stephen Moore and announcer John Marsh, will all take part in the new series, set to start next spring and be completed before the end of 2004.
I will miss not having “Peter Jones as… the book.” [cue funky, rustic, cool theme music]
Today’s Fox Trot:
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According to IMDb’s StudioBrief:
NBC Returns ‘Coupling’ to the Brits
Launched with a fanfare of publicity trumpeting its resolve to push back the boundaries of sexual expression on television, the new NBC comedy Coupling was officially silenced on Monday. Before its debut, network executives had expressed hope that it would replace the departing Friends in the affection of the U.S. audience, but it drew dismal ratings on Thursday night, ordinarily NBC’s highest-rated night of the week. The original British version of Coupling has been running on the BBC for four years and remains a big hit. In an interview with today’s (Tuesday) New York Post, Coupling producer Sue Vertue suggested that NBC’s overly exuberant publicity may have been at least partly to blame for the early cancellation. “I don’t think you can say it’s a show ‘everyone is talking about’ before anyone has seen it,” she said. NBC did not indicate Monday how it intends to replace the show following the November sweeps. Currently it is filling the time by airing “supersized” versions of Friends, Will & Grace and Scrubs on Thursdays.
Now that that’s over and done with, I can get to watching the real thing.